Entering Survival Mode (and why I've been MIA)
Updated: Mar 30
Over the last 6 months or so my activity on this website has dropped significantly and that hasn't gone without notice, I have people questioning it fairly frequently (and I can't say it doesn't make me proud that people are reading and noticing). Anytime this happens people encourage me to keep writing and reaching out which I very much appreciate; that being said, I don't stop improving this website because I don't want to do it, I stop whenever my own life becomes too much for me to handle and I can't bring myself to put anything else on my plate.
Since November of 2019, I have moved, quit personal training (temporarily), started at a new school in a completely different field (engineering), and undergone excision surgery for my endometriosis. Over the past few years, I have developed (and written about) effective coping mechanisms e.g. working out, audio books, and well... this blog however, there will always be times when everything just becomes too much and I need to block out things like social media which tend to worsen my already sometimes crippling anxiety and depression.
It's during these times that I enter survival mode and I am only able to concentrate on what is directly in front of me. For about 10 days after my surgery, all I could do was try to eat enough and walk around, I couldn't so much as read. Additionally, as a person on the spectrum, any change can be debilitating so all I've been able to concentrate on is keeping my head above water.
Thank you to everyone that has supported me over the last 11 months. I will always do my best to keep engaged and please never hesitate to reach out.